after n realise

after all have ended ...

i jus realise i m being so selfish all the time ...

even u r calling for help i dint even bother to help u ....

after breaking up ...

i heard many rumours abt u ....

how u tell ur pals tat u gonne giv me suprise for my brithday ...

i jus .... hais .... its finally over ... i jus cant get over it ....

u tried so hard i dint even bother to say thx ....

all i did was //// selfishly telling u i miss u ... all i wanna do is u to be mine onli ...

honestly .... if u ask me wat u lik even wat colour u lik ....

i cant even answer ....

i m jus useless... u ask me wat i lik abt u ....

i lik so many things abt u i lik the way u laugh when u close ur mouth with ur hands...

i lik the way u talk .... which added the instink of gilbert it self ....

i lik the way u pay ur attention on the road....

i lik when u say u love me n bag me not to go to other guys ...

i lik the way u hug me cradle me

the way u usually uses ur voice to act as another person ....

the curiousity of u ... tat kill s the bird...

how we walk home after being in ur house ...

holding hands .... which i rarely can do tat .... i jus love to see u smile n laughs ....

but i figure out tat ... i rarely see tat lately ....

i get it now i finaly notice the help you wan from me ....

n i m jus ignoring it all this while ..... i m jus another irritation of u all this while....

if i jus could go back to time....

i would have kiss u good bye tat day ...

i would have tell u i actually dun mind u going clubbing tat day .... i wanna prove tat i m tats y i hold ur hands in ur car ....

i know my face look mad beocz of the word missing u ....i lost .... i dun wanna follow u becoz i m jus too tired ....

i would also have tell u i wanna sleep tat day not even go find u even u r busy .. i know tat ....

i still go find u .... becox of the word i miss u .... i lost again ...

i jus cant control not seeing u for two weeks ... n when u come back ....i dint really get the chance to be with u .... i jus m silly i shold really had not abuse i m ur gf ... n i need u ....

i know its really too late for me to say sorry .... i know its really late for me to realise ....

i know tat u tell me b4 tat you will neve forgiv a person who make u mad ....

i know this blog is useless to u .... n i dun even know whether u r seeing it .... but i jus wan u to know i m sorry for everything i did..i jus hopw we will be at lease a fren