for some people who was wondering where m i ??

well i kinda make my self in trouble since my result for AS level was not tat good...

so i need to retake :( ....

sad case oh well wat to do la....

hais... but one thing made my day was ....

my law which i really work hard for that particular subject...

my paper 1 i get A then paper 2 get D with a overall mark of C... omg....

i can get a B o A may be my paper i wrote wrong topic...>.<....

hais sad .....

so ....i won be blogging >.<> ... sorry~

story ....

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.
Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

weekly post!!!

well about a week i dint blog de >.<

i m sorry cos i was busy with things lately ....

so here goes ....

on friday ....30 july

well same o... same o ...

i after class ... actually went out with kah mun for a while ....

jus to get some tickets for movie at night .... at mid valley ...

n since we neve meet for so long de well ... yea so i decided to go out for some yum cha section...

but ended up we eat then buy tickets ... then fetch my sis n then eat again >.<

well we went back to our usual hot spot while we were in high school ...

i missed tat place a lot ....

heart this siu long pao ^^

from here my sis keep on using my iphone to take my picture

havent notice

havent notice

havent notice

noticing de ...

telling hey stop it ...

grrrrrr......

stop taking pic pls....

at night i watch DESPICABLE ME with my dearest sister ...

lol we were late for the movie becos of jam ... hais....

then ... my bf wait us at mid valley for one hour de sorry dear....

while in the cinema ... i can say i dint enjoy this movie... cos ,,,

my fren was calling me to comfirm tonight clubbing things lol....

at 11 pm... we went to mist for clubbing section again .... haha

its lik a weekly duty de .... for some reason ... haha

but this time clubbing me n my bf oso went there but we dint argue ... haha

becos he was my body guard for the night where ever i go he follows ....

good bf rite ? hhahah ....

oh yea i dance till i got gastric ... tat is how much fun i have tat day !!!

the bodyguard... haha

bump into my long lost frens... haha

n this guy neve really club also bump into him ^^

saturday ... 31 july

went out with kah mun n chen lin tat day

well our aim was buskin robbins...

n yum cha section again ... was actually wanting to sing k ...

but the price was fuking expensive !!!

well ... we did have fun eventhough is sound boring haha ....

well after this week i cant see her tat often de cos exam coming again ....

my mushroom soup de bread looks lik a breast rite?? haha tat wat kah mun said >.<

sunday 1 july

becos my bf want me to company him to swimming ...

which was i see him swim only >.<>

hahah how bad m i as a gf rite ? hahah

well we reach sakae sushi ... he open the menu ... n he start seeing the menu from beginning when we sit there till we finish our meal swt rite ...

n he say ... wow there is so many things to eat ... n he actually wanna call more ...

n i was lik no l... dun i m full de ... lol swt he is sometimes quite lik a kid ( i mean cuteness)

monday 2 july

well i went to genting with my bf after class...

why ? becos his mom wanna go there to gamble ... n me n him become her driver haha

n we oso enjoy there while she was in the casino ...

we went craving for some food... some junk food actually

hmmm neve knew tat genting got so many junk food actually ...

n do some shoppin in genting ... swt who go there to shopping de??

we nothing to do de....

n then walk till tired sit at a coffee bean study n do homework... swt no life hahah

tuesday 3 july

i dint go to class today becos my eye swollen de ... i though i have red eyes ...

but in the end i went to see dctor he said it was becos of contact lenses ...

well to all girl tat love too wear colour contact lens pls take good care of ur own eye ...

i heard so many ppl having eye problem becos of that contact lenses ... but to me

haha "want pretty dun scare die " ... haha swt ... hmmm anyways since i dint go to class

my bf bring me to sushi buffet called TENJI ....

located in solaris bangsar ....

well becos its cheaper on weekdays so yea random ... haha ...

so full omg !!!! i neve eat so full so long de ....

wednesday ...

i had ntg much today ...

jus i went to pasar malam with my dear dear ...

since he neve go counnought pasar malam before ...

haha ... luckily i neve eat dinner n i go walau eh ...

he can buy a lot of food to eat ... haha ....

but tumbs up for the durian ice cream tat we brought ...

its lik eating frozen durian haha

thursday ....

i made some macaroni n chicken soup ...

haha .... lol here is the recipe ....

ingredients

for the soup... if u want it to be creamer ... then u add milk into it ... one cup n hlf cup water...

boil the macaroni with water n the potatoes too...

mix the macaroni n the soup n add some salt then u can eat de ^^

friday ....

today everyone in my college was so freaking excited to go for the gala night today ...

well some of my fren .... well help n me haha i went back ... n sleep >.<

but in the end ... i went there early to help out too ... haha .. how bad m i

but its worth it ... for every effort tat we put in ..

is really fun n i really had a great night .... although everyone is wearing traditional ...

i m not ... but who care at the end...

the entrance....

the tickets ....

the meals ... yumm... ok la with indian food its kinda nice ...

the rice ... >.<

my class mates ... haha

my close fren in kdu ,.. meet daina ... hahashe a chindian

her n me obsesses with the menu haha

close pals ..hhaha

my dear fren gurpreet ... a skinq

haha i personaly heart this picture

heart this too ^^

n us obsesses with flowers ...

saturday ...

i made pudding ^^ .... lol lately really into makin something cos ... i dunno leh ?? hhahah

i m having the time gua ... may be ...

becos i now dun have exam so ... haha taking this time to improve my skill a bit >.<...

ingredient ...

ingredient ....

caramel .... this u can make it after u make the custard ... n u need to make this sauce jus buy putting half a cup of boiling water

this is the custard which is the pudding la.... haha ... hmmm u need to 1st mix it with half cup of milk than boil it then slowly adding 3 cup of milk ....

n in the box ... they will teach u by putting the caramel 1st ... however i use the other method which is put custard 1st then slowly pour the caramel in it lik in the picture ^^

well after making pudding i go fetch my boy fren n then went to watch a movie call

THE LAST AIRBENDER (A.K.A AVATAR)

wel its a nice movie though lol with the graphic n all tat ... i make it quite nice ....

haha i was enjoying it ... haha

ok its actually a cartoon show from nickelodeon .... n they made it to real la ... haha

for some who dunno wat the movie all abt i thin u guys will know it of u see this ... hehe