confusion!!!

everything !!! family ... studies !!!
all of tis suddenly come at once!!!
jus onli tis ...
all tis made me feel confuse n stress!!!
y my family need to argue abt money !!!
argue abt things tat can settle properlly !!!
y need to argue when my spm is near !???
y need to argue when i need to me the middle man??
m i so easy n stress free to u all??
y my father need to scold my mom even wat she did all was the right things
whereas him is jus ntg !!!
useless n unforgivable!!!
cant u look urself in side the mirror??
i need to use things to make my self not to think so much@!@!@#!@#
but all u always did is to remind me n remind me!!!
i jus hope one day my family will jus become jus lik last time!!!
last time tat we always have fun n be as one family!!!
daddy all u need to do is to be honest n we as ur child ...
we !!!
WE CAN FORGIV U
COZ WE STILL HAVE HOPE ON U N WE STILL LOVE U AS A FATHER