after struggling of the absent of u in my life ...

i feel so down really down ... but after today u choy me back ... i really happy de...

jus as simple as that n i m happy de ...

thx for letting everything go ... n chat with me n care of me again ...

i willing i really willing to give up all i have to make you come back to my life...

because i love you and loving you !!!ONLY YOU

i will remember every bit that u and me crossing ....

i dun mind the road that you test me have so many hardness

after 3 days of not communicating so well with u i feel so lonely and feel lik crying whenever i think of u ... you neve been treat me so cold before ... i feel you neve try to take all these while i am trying to bag for ur forgiveness . even though i know its my fault as i hurt u too much too... but its really hard for me too miss u n while studying ... all my concentration will just automatically goes to u ... may be because i m scare that u were too angry tat one of these days u will leave me ... as i m writing this too i m crying too ... why and how can u be so cruel ... towards me ... have u change ?? have you disliked me already ?? from recent conversation after we argued that night ... all u sms me was just so simple ... and when i called u and try to talk to u ... with a nice tone you will reply me as if u r angry and i did something wrong u will be raising ur voice ... n ask me what u want ... what i want is jus simple i miss u can i jus listen to ur voice at least ?? ... ur just always take things so complicated !!! making me suffering .... i dun know what u want !!! ... i feel so happy when u say i m ur gf again ... but i m so hurtful when u scold me that i flirt with other guys ... where i already promise u before u go outstation that i won do such things anymore ... and you still brings this things up and make it all my fault again ... you neve seem to want to support on my studies but make me feel worst ... upset and disappointed on my self...

went clubbing on 4th of march ... to maisoon ... i had a lots of fun !! with new frens... and kelvin ... haha ... thx for bringing me ...

well at 1st i was really upset ... becos of two things that happen to me...

1st being treated lik a balll by a fren... well i know lately i dint contact him tat much de ...

cos his gf start to think i have something with him so i back out a bit...

n since when me n my bf have problems... the one i wanna depend on most ... is with him ... becos his the one i share problems with when comes to guy problems...

but in a sudden time ... he dint want to involve on giving me advice anymore... becos he said his fade up ?? well if being a person's best fren is so fade up ... than u r not anymore m best fren...

n as for u my best fren ( the gf of this guy) well ask ur self has he really being honest n loyal to u ??

well i can be frank that he did ask me before this question ... IF UR MY GF IS MUCH BETTER RIGHT ?? wat ?? wat r u regretting abt having her .?? she not good enuff for u ??

came on with the condition of urs ... i dun think u even deserve her!!!

and by all this ... he as my boss at work... has pass me to a different team of him ....

wat a jerk when he says this on the phone ...BETTER TO CHANGE U TO A DIFFeRENT TEAM THAN CUT U Off.... wat ??? if u really dun wanna see me that much ... jus better cut me off k...

and another problem was with my bf... yes... i was really happy that u tell me u love me... but i really dun get why ... u stop ... hais... anyways,... all the problems has sort out de... so not to worry ... well interesting week.... becos of these stressness from them...

well i planned to go clubbing ... and what happen ?? ,,, my bf got angry ... and dint want to keep in touch with me... there r 5 reason why his angry ...

1. i m not responsible

2.i m sick i still go club

3.under medication still go club becos i will drink alcohol drinks so i dint take medicine

4.doctor say i cant take in second hand smoke due to coughing

5.doctor oso say cant drink ice...

becos of this ... his really angry ... but in the end ... even how much i hurt him or make him angry ... he stilll misses me and love me... thats what he told me.... and to me ... i m really sorry that i make u so worried and angry ... and hurt ...

so well... yea in the end sendiri bawa masalah ...

I M SORRY MING YAU >......

so now i start to study hard to get ready for my coming exam... so won be blgging so often de...

more pic will be in facebook...

其实很多男孩子都不知道，

女孩子在冲他们发火后自己转过身却在不断啜泣。

实很多男孩子都不知道，

女孩子从来不会真正去生他们的气，因为她是真的喜欢他在乎他。

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子只会对自己喜欢的男生唠唠叨叨，

也只会对自己喜欢的人耍性子。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会来在乎你关心你，怕你做错事情。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会对你发火不会冲你撒娇让你哄她，

在别人面前她都是淑女。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，你根本就没有本事让她哭泣，

让她即使生气也不会超过2天。

而这一切都只是因为她喜欢你，而这一切都因为你还不够在意她不够懂她。

　　
于是，你们时常争吵，你认为她脾气不好，她认为你不够迁就她。

于是，你们总是冷战，你以为她不喜欢你，她以为你不在乎她。

于是，你们总是莫名其妙的彼此错过，也许擦身而过，本身就是一种悲伤着的无奈与幸福。

　　
要知道，凄美依然是美的一种，并且美的绚丽悲凉而沧桑，那是更加的美。

因为她喜欢你，所以她偶尔冲你发火，时常对你撒娇。

因为她喜欢你，所以她才会生你的气；

而又因为喜欢你，她才不会去生气很久。

你可知道，每个女孩子的心都是水晶做的，晶莹剔透，但是很容易就碰伤摔碎。

你可知道，每个女孩子都是不设防的，你那么轻易就闯进她的心，走的时候却只留下伤害。

她从来都不知道，这个世界上根本没有可以让她哭的人，

因为真正值得她哭的那个根本舍不得让她哭。

她会很矜持，

她会很骄傲，

她会很冷淡，

她总是嘴里说着你走开，心里却一直叫你留下。

你了解女孩吗?

　　
请你张开你的耳朵，

也请你打开你的心，

去听她心里真正的呼唤，

而不是她嘴里的口是心非。

她会看着你转身，然后她跟着你转身，当侧身而过的时候，

你看不见她的泪，滂沱在脸上心里。

如果你喜欢她，请你多陪她；

如果你喜欢她，请你多宠她；

如果你喜欢她，请你多让她。

如果你喜欢她，请你去听听她内心的声音，那是呐喊——请拥抱她。

在爱情里，总是彼此伤害，彷佛这样才能证明自己爱得激烈爱到轰轰烈烈。

可是，爱情里没有孰对孰错；

爱情里更加没有你比我多我比你少。

你爱她，她爱你，如此就已经足够。

不要试图让彼此的伤害，让彼此更加脆弱悲伤。

你们彼此相爱，你们需要的是温暖是幸福是甜蜜是快乐，不是伤害。

不要用沉默宣战，不要互不相让，

更不要什么话都不讲就冷漠离去。

要知道，你离去的时候，你的眼睛起了雾，她的眼角泛着泪光。

越是安静战火就越深，这是冷战也是彼此的伤害——

无论是怎么的复合，那些伤口曾经存在，抹不去。

请跟她一个拥抱，用你的拥抱去化解她心里的悲伤与眼角的泪水。

她喜欢你，她绝对不会拒绝你的拥抱，她只会害怕你的冷漠转身无声安静。　
　　　
请记住，相爱的人不要轻易宣战，因为冷战带来的伤害，超出你的预计。

也请记住，只要你喜欢她，没有什么是你接受不了的，

只要你喜欢她，就喜欢她的一切一切。

那么她所有的小性子所有的坏脾气所有的臭毛病，在你眼里都是撒娇。

也请记住，她喜欢你，她需要的不是你真的转身，她嘴里说着的也不是她的真心话。

她只是想你宠她，想你抱她，哪怕，没有道谦。

feb 19 ...

today i was so sien till wanna sleep de at home ntg to do ... so ... i know tat jodee come back from nilai .. so call her go out yum cha with me .. jahhha ... and sheeken wanna buy phone ... swt ...

well ... we went to the mines there to company shee ken to buy his new sony phone...

then me n jo dee sit at old town talk abt 2 till 3 hours... talk abt our beloved guy ... in our heart ... can talk for so long yes cos we neve see each other often ma... so after shee ken had finish choose his phone de then we went home then at night come out again to gamble....

cny ma who wont gamble wor.... then go esmund house to gamble... and i waited kelvin liew to fetch me from my house... and he fetch jo dee as well... the funny thing was his car meter all spoiled de... so even the petrol one oso spoil so he dint know that his tank was empty .. then in the middle of the road after fetching jodee ... the car ran out of petrol... we waited for one hour for rescue to come ... then after that we rush to esmund house to start out gambling ... i neve lose or win n shee ken win a lot so after gamble we went yum cha at stevents... he cheng ahha ....

21 feb ...

today is my sis chinese birthday ... yea guess where she celebrated with her frens??

red box in the gardens ... expensive and class well she is my sis alright ... swt ...she had fun i can see that as well as me ... i m her baby sitter for the day ,... swt ?? .. but i get to sing some songs... and i did some homework during the time ... after finish celebrating we went back home to change and then fly to bukit jalil for reunion dinner.... for my father side of the family ...

haha more ang paus to get from ... haha ... but too bad my brother dint attend dunno wat reason... me i jus enjoy the food ... i dint talk much during the dinner.... may be sitting in different table with cousins...

after 21 feb start college life again ... but still is cny ... i still have the fever of going out leh !!!... hais... no have the moood to study yet ... well... hmmm anyways... college life starts de ... but yet this one week the lecturer keep on skipping lesson ... hais .. next week sure need to replace again de la.... wanna die de!!!,,,, i lik when classes are cancel but when come to replacing them its jus ridiculous... timing all mess up de... and then friday again holiday swt rather giv us one more week of holiday lol....

27 feb ...

went clubbing ;... since dunno how long neve go de... i finally have the chance to go .. and with jodee too... my clubbing partner ... with her only i will feel the high feeling in me... haha ... hmm i really enjoyed my self a lot !!! since dunno when de... i neve go clubbing... and such a coincidence i saw kelvin liew there as well... gila he come to find us in the dance floor... happy to see him there leh... haha ... and i was happy too... i went with you ... 1st time go clubbing with u ... and i also 1st time going maisoon ... well the club is ok lah .. not bad ... but song is repeating non stop no those newest song not updated ... but its better then zuok ?? haha ...

more pic in facebook ... sorry lazy to upload hahah