life being single is always fun to do ...

where u r a free bird ... u can do everything u desire...

every where u go ... u won need to inform anyone n ask permission for it ...

going places tat involving some flirtng activities...

sleep n wake up late isnt a problem at all....

the phone is not tat annoying at all....

won need to even think of gift to giv the special someone ...

dun need to get worried of the special someone whether he or she is hungry o wats up with them...

why is she not replying or he *....

the most i enjoy is ... i get to know more kind of ppl in a different way ....

to choose whether to be with .... yea i know it sound kinda bitch becox i m a bitch = gurl

but when things come till in a very complicated way ....

i get the feeling of running away ... with the feeling hanging in between...

some i hope i could jus be with him in a realtionship tats more then jus frens...

some i hope we were jus frens ....or best frens ....

some i jus regret knowing him ....

to me feelings matter the most ...

well u cant really make Love with the person u dun really love rite ??jus an example....

but ... when things comes to where u need to choose ..

tats when i get the feeling of backing out ...

i hate to tell ppl tat i dislik u ... becox i feel its hurtful....

n when i tend to ignore the person .... he will jus sms me more then usuall...

well humans r jus lik this .... when the things r hard to get ... u jus want to get it no matter wat ...

n tats when ... we were very very closed .... n it turns to be indirectly enemies after being rejected...

n me i m used of the present of the someone ... n when he got the intention to STOP ...

well tats when i felt lonely .... yea i m a bitch....

i realise my age getting older ... i dun have trust to others so easily already..

may be its becox of wat i have gone through ....

n now ... i jus wanna be single ... tilll really one day ... i found the ONE...

hate me if u must ....

here is to tell u abt my life lately ....

life is going well lately ... where everything is in good place now....

i m to be settle down with no stressness at all.... no sadness at all....

where my family n my life r very fine...

a lot of ppl been wondering abt the pass days tat my msn personal message tat i was so pist off...

yea its my family problem again ....

but it turns out unbelievably better then wat i though it would be!!!

my dad debts r cleared... no matter how my dad n mom argued ... in the end there is love between them ....

i still remembered the day they were arguing on the phone ...

my dad yea he was darn pist on my mom words... n he had internal bleeding went to hospital...

yet when my mom know tat he is suffering she send a lots of sweet messages telling him how much she still love him as her husband....

now i know even how bitter a relationship is ... fate r always fate there is no need to force ppl ...

yea ... might also shift house cox ... my dad still have the intention to sell my house in return for my mom to come back from london (tat wat he told me)

i was wondering i wish i can win a lottery o something ... hope tat we won need to shift o even move ... jus to renovate my house ... n also our feelings towards each others... becox of the word money .. tat we as a family doesnt seem to be one ...

i was always angry abt my dad doing those stupid things gamble all his properties...

n his life away.... yet come to when i saw him suffering from painess ... i was abt to sried when i sent him into the hospital ... yes ... family is always family .... n tat moment i know tat ... i cant completely hate him ... becox he is my father..

lol anyways ...

my dad birthday .... happy birthday daddy !!! love u still

愛上一个人..........如此的甜蜜卻又讓人受傷害

放棄一个人..........如此的難過卻又讓人心碎

因為愛你.所以放手還你自由

因為愛你.所以不再讓你困擾

因為愛你.所以寧願自己難過

因為愛你.所以我逼自己離開

如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊?

如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼?

是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開?

dead blog

will not blog till after exam haha ....

so its dead

starstrukk

lol their new song ? lol the mv was ... ha???

fallen sick

bored, sien suffering n sufferin n sien

wasting my sem break!!!!

i m missin my other half who comfort me while i m sick ...

i found it rather meaningful( lol if u dun know chinese u will find the english rather sucky)

七个对不起，让你懂得什么是爱 Seven sorry, lets you understand that anything is the love

男孩和女孩从小就认识，男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，每次男孩总是满载而归，女孩却是两手空空，女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，独自一个人回到家，然后闷闷不乐。晚饭前，男孩敲响女孩家的门，女孩一见是男孩，扭头就走，男孩追上前，对女孩说：“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸里，送给你。”女孩眉头一放，慧心的笑了，就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，转眼，他们各自成长着。

The boy and the girl knew since they were a child. one day the boy ask the girl to go outside the village nearby the pond to seize the small shrimp together frequently, each time the boy always returns home with a full load, while the girl return with a empty bucket, the girl cant bare to cry, she alone goes home, and felt depressed. Before dinner, the boy knock on the girl family's gate, the girl saw the boy, she just walk off, the boy quickly chase after her, and he tell the girl: “sorry, I seized yours shrimp, for, I raised them in the goldfish bowl, gave you.”As soon as the girl brow puts, she smiled, this represented they pure childhood, in an instant, they respectively growed.

——纯纯的“对不起” 。Pure “sorry”

男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，直到长大后，也是如此。
男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，然后躲在远处，看女孩着急的走投无路，等着女孩拨通他的手机，然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩，依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错了。”随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，于是，那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。
—— “对不起”的快乐 。 “Sorry” joy.

大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都休息不到一次，而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。女孩委屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续了很久。终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，可每次，都是女孩先妥协。
那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，女孩欣喜不已，她在家精心打扮，等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡梦中醒来，脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给我好吗？”于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。

The boy always like to play tricks on the girl, will tease the girl frequently till she cry, then the guy will cheer her up till she smile again, after growing up, The boy secretly let the gas of the girl car tire away, then hides in the distant place, looked athow the gurl get worried, waits for the girl to dial his handset, then shouts abuse his young thief behavior. But the boy, that likes such girl as before. He in a low voice walks from the distant place, what is dingy was the girl pushes that not to have the bicycle which was mad, whatever the girl grumbled in the one side, the boy actually secretly chuckled to oneself, then put said to the girl: “sorry, Its my fault.”, The girl will then be immediately come down, will tell the boy not to do such thing next time, the boy will nod, therefore, at that time they were filling the smiling face every day.
—— “对不起”也是一种承诺。 “Sorry” is also one kind of pledge.

婚后，男孩的事业大有成就，经常有许多应酬，而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了，每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，把家里收拾的干干净净，她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，男孩总问他为什么，女孩却总是慧心的一笑。
慢慢的，男孩每次回家，身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，而每次没等女孩问，男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。女孩黯然，那时起，女孩不太爱说话了，也不像以前那么开朗了，她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，抱着枕头看韩剧，然后随着剧情哭泣，夜深时，就会疯狂的大哭。以后的日子里，男孩回来时，身上的香水味只有一种味道了，女孩从来不问，可是男孩依旧说：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”

After marriage, boy's enterprise has the achievement greatly, many treat with courtesy frequently, but the girl already became a professional wife, every day prepares the hot food dish hot food in the home for the boy, tidies up the cleanness the family, she will go to the food market to buy back some small river prawns frequently to place in the fish bowl to raise, why will the boy always ask him, as soon as the girl actually wisdom will smile. Slowly, the boy each time goes home, on the body has always filled the different perfume flavor, but each time has not waited for the girl to ask, the boy is always busy at explaining said treats with courtesy are too many. The girl is low-spirited, got up at that time, the girl not too liked speaking, also did not look like before has been so open and bright, she always liked all day long dull at home, held the pillow to look at Han the play, when then along with plot sob, night of depth, crazy crying. When the later day, the boy comes back, on body's perfume taste only then one kind of flavor, the girl always did not ask, but the boy said as before: “sorry, today has treated with courtesy.”

—— “对不起”，谎言的开始。 “Sorry”, rumor start.

渐渐的，男孩开始不回家，或总是在外出差，男孩的事业越来越好，身边都是奉承的人，他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，而女孩，几乎不出门了，她总会去超市买上很多方便面，和一些必要的日用品，然后把自己关在家里，这一呆就是很久。从前，女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，而现在，她孤身一人，身边没有一个可以说话的人，每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，男孩总是仓促的回答到：“对不起，我太忙了。”女孩，失落的扣上电话，那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。

The boy starts not to go home gradually, or always travels on official business in outside, boy's enterprise is getting better and better, the side is the flattery person, he every day under others think highly proud are smiling, but the girl, does not go out nearly, she would to go to the supermarket to buy many instant noodles, with some essential daily necessities, then closes oneself at home, this dull is very long. Formerly, the girl will chat together frequently with the boy, but the present, her all alone, side has not been possible to speak the human, each time telephoned to ask when the boy did go home, boy always hasty reply: “sorry, I have been too busy.”The girl, loses fastens the telephone, that later she again had not asked when the boy will go home. Slowly, the boy each time goes home, on the body has always filled the different perfume flavor, but each time has not waited for the girl to ask, the boy is always busy at explaining said treats with courtesy are too many. The girl is low-spirited, got up at that time, the girl not too liked speaking, also did not look like before has been so open and bright, she always liked all day long dull at home, held the pillow to watch the Han play, when then along with plot sob, night of depth, crazy crying. When the later day, the boy comes back, on body's perfume taste only then one kind of flavor, the girl always did not ask, but the boy said as before: “sorry, today has treated with courtesy.”
—— “对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。 “Sorry”, is only the way which is perfunctory.

女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了她，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，而不是无谓的后退。
那天，女孩心血来潮，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，那是女孩第一次去，也是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯，来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落，这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，她来到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。那个女人坐在桌子上，******的发出微弱的呻吟声，那个男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……
许久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩，转身离开了。男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫喊，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”可女孩，始终没有听见。

The girl is studying on television's appearance, starts to dress up itself, she thought that the boy does not go home, perhaps is looked that greasy she, she has decided no longer dispiritedly, their happiness should strive for depending on oneself, but is not the senseless backlash. That day, the girl is prompted by a sudden impulse, has gone to the place which according to the address the boy works, that is the girl first time goes, is also only one time. The girl astringent presses down the elevator, arrived at this boy to say frequently the busy place, her careful observation this company's each corner, here all, she thought was very attractive. Finally, bypasses the long work corridor, she arrives at boy's office, gently opens the door ......The girl has been shocked, sees at present is not own husband, is also not that spoils her bicycle's that thief boy frequently, is not that the boy who places the shrimp in the goldfish bowl, but is one man who makes love with other woman. That woman sits on the table, ****** exudes the weak moan, that man, as if in wooded mountain hungry extremely wild animal ...... For a long time, the boy only then discovered the girl, the boy has been panic-stricken, is busy at picking the clothing puts on. But the girl, turned around to leave. The boy dashes, is pursuing the girl, that evening, the heavy rain has attacked the entire city. The girl does not attend to boy's yelling, proceeds to run directly, toward the direction which goes home runs, the boy shouted behind the girl: “sorry, I love you, sorry, I really only loves you.”But the girl, has not always heard.
—— 这样的“对不起”太伤人。 Such “sorry” too offends somebody.


男孩一直都没有找到女孩，女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，无心工作，无心花天酒地，他想不到女孩可以去哪里，因为女孩没有朋友，她唯一的朋友就是男孩，男孩终日守着电话机，手机24小时不关机，怕错过了女孩的电话。这一等就是半年多。
快递为男孩送来一个盒子。
男孩打开一看，里面是许多河虾的标本，有的在树叶边休息，有的在水草里躲着，各式各样的河虾标本，旁边放着一封。

The boy had not found the girl continuously, the girl is missing the very long boy not to find the girl continuously, the girl is missing is very long. Boy's world already a piece of darkness, unintentionally worked, indulges in dissipation unintentionally, he could not think where the girl can go to, because the girl does not have the friend, her only friend is the boy, the boy defends the telephone all day long, the handset 24 hours is not closing down, feared that has missed girl's telephone. This and so on is more than a half year. Express sends a box for the boy. As soon as the boy opens looked that inside is many river prawn's specimens, some rest nearby the leaf, some are hiding in the water plant, all kinds of river prawn specimen, side is putting a letter.

“ 我始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到你，我想这些『警告：注意文明用语！』应该过的没什么两样吧，我很好，我学会了离开你怎么让自己存活，我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再为你24小时的不关机，让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤。
离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了。
对不起，我想我是真的累了。”

“I always do not have the courage to see you again, possibly is I is too spiritless, also perhaps is I simply does not want to see you, I thought that these 'warned: Attention civilized terminology!'Should difference, I very have not been good, how did I learn to leave you by my survival, I had understood how to make money to support itself, but did not need to wait for you to go home every day, burnt table of steaming hot meals for you, until cool did not see you the person, my handset already did not use, because I will again already not close down for your 24 hours, is fully suffered the radiation oneself suffering. I understood how to treasure itself, treasures own should originally the happy life. I thought that I am may forget how to love you, because you make mine love everywhere the large male deer wound. The divorce agreement, on the pressure in fish bowl's, you signs the character, sent according to the address to me is good. Sorry, I thought I am really has been tired.”

男孩按照地址找去，他满心希望能够见到女孩，然后让女孩原谅，并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她，可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。
女孩的父亲告诉男孩，女孩在写完这封信后，跳楼自杀了，血肉一片模糊。

The boy looks according to the address, he is filled with the hope to be able to see the girl, then lets the girl forgive, and tells the girl not to be able not she, but opens the gate is actually girl's father, but the girl after death - - is girl's father tells the boy on the station in her father, the girl after finishing this letter, jumped from an upper story has committed suicide, a flesh and blood fuzziness.
—— 原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。 Originally “sorry” may also be a kind of conclusion.

那一年，男孩疯了。That one year, the boy was insane.

每个人在自己的生命里头，一定会遇到一个自己真正该珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那一个人，不是每一句的对不起，都可以换来每一句的没关系……千万不要辜负了自己心爱的人，那对谁，都不好……把这个故事传下去，让你的朋友们知道，不要随意地说出对不起......

Each person inside own life, certainly will run into the human who should treasure truly. Asks you to treasure that person well, is not each being unfair to, may trade each relations ......Do not disappoint the beloved person, then to anyone, not good ......Passes around this story, lets you the friends know that do not say at will sorry ......

i dint update my blog for one week

well i dun think everyone will wan to see my whole week of boredness...

so i jus say here ....

its lik every other yum cha section ...

homewrok doing .... studying n also sleeping ...

well yea .... went out with same o same o .... my best fren joo dee desmund ken jin tjun jin shee ken esmund yea ... its jus lik same routine.... n went out afetr college with sabrina...

haha ... so here is the special part in the whole week....

i went to makahmah besar kuala lumpur again ....

its not becox abt my family or my house...

its a college trip where u get to hear the court n see stuff ...

now i know tat our high court is the 2nd biggest in asia wow??

there is 37 high court ..27 majestrit court i think cox i kinda forgotten ...

well the trip is of course nice...

hearing the casses ?? haha its abt stealing book in MPH book store ?? wat for u wanna steal a book??

so after hearing went in to the lock up...

well seeing everyone being lock up.. the feeling was so darn awful

i dun know its lik seeing them ,... hais ... i dun know...

well there is a procedure where u are being lock up .... where u can ask for forgivness n tolerate the timing u being lock up ....

overall i kinda know a lot from there ... n a lot of picture?? haha

(picture upload later )

well there is also something fun beside that ....

i went to poppy gardens clubbing again!!! lol at firday nite ....

kinda wanna let a lot things out of me that kinda reason why i wans drunk that day ....

the feeling was ah !!! terrible

sad thing brother deleted all the picture .... fuk him

i was kinda upset with a lot things lately ....

where i dun feel lik discussing with anyone... jus wanna go have a long break !!!

i wanna have a long break from everything going on ....

sometime really feel lik wat is my reason to continue my life in here right now...

lifeless clueless no idea...