12 feb 10

eventhough we r not consider as bf or gf ?? .. but our relationship is still maintaining as gf n bf ...

i m really confused whether u treat me as ur gf or jus frens?

but u tell me u didnt tell ur frens n ur mom abt us breaking up ...

even we r not together de... n u didnt tell ur frens or parents or family ...

but i feel tat i dun have the name of ur gf ... make me feel unsecured ...

make me feel u will one day run away from me... tats wat i scared...

when i ask u can we be back togather again ?...

u jus tell me u wan time but i cant help my self to ask u again ...

whether we can be back togather u jus tell me ...

dun be so annoying can or not ... hais... i m sad n confuse ... wat u want me to do wor!!!

13 feb..

today we went out becos i wanna unbarred my line n buy duck for dinner...

is me who bag u to go out with me...

n u agree ... when i webcam with u ... i already can see tat u cut ur hair de,,,

then when i see u in person i see tat u dye ur hair...

actually frankly saying ... u look more fashionable then the ming yau i used to know 5 months ago ...

u become from an uncle kinda look till more fashionable...

honestly i m scare tat u do all these is to jus go out to a party n find some gurl to be ur gf...

but i bluff u said tat u look lik lala chai ...

i can see ur face turn really unhappy after tat ... ( if u dun love / have feeling towards me if i say something lik u look ugly actually u wont mind at all but u turn unhappy after tat prove one thing u still love me n care of me)

then i ask you one question ... will you be jealous when other guys talk with me now??

u said u wont be jealous u will only think abt it ... ( at least he think abt it )

today i m jus happy to see u ... seriously after we broke up ... i only jus hope for one thing ...

is to see u more often ... tats it ... i didnt want more demand other then tat ...

14 feb

today is valentine day ...

well everyone will go out with the one they love most .... n me yes i surely will find u lor...

cos i still love you a lot ... so when i wake up ... the 1st thing i do is thinking how to ask u out ..

so i send a sms to u ... ask u whether r u free or not ... u reply say u r free...

i was jumping joy when i saw ur message... u come out with me is already a present from u to me .... i m happy for it liao ... we planned to watch movie... i neve though tat CNY still got so many ppl watch movie.. so i planned to go mid valley ... but unfortunately i was wrong ... the place is pack!!! lik shit ... n we cant get tickets... when we reach to signature ... i seriously dunno where to buy tickets from there...then he scold me ... say ... y u always do thing also neve plan before you do ... the instant u say me lik tat i feel lik crying already ... i really dun feel lik talking anymore ... beocs yes ur right ... i didnt planned everything nicely ... becos i neve predict tat u will say yes to come out with me if not i will already buy tickets to surprise u again... but in the end... u calm down yourself n tell me u wanna drink coffee ... i know when ur mad u wont so fast calm down ... i can see ur trying ur best de... so we went to a coffee shop to play monopoli ... i know it sound lik so bored but as simple as it seems... i feel happy already .... when we were heading to high way ... he said wanna fetch me home but i still wanna see him so i said i wanna go to ur house... ur mom gave me a big ang pau n u saw n ask me y she treat me so good... ( at 1st i oso dunno why but now i know why liao ) ...

15 feb

today 3 am ... after i play poker n my fren were drunk ... we went yum cha... n one of them bag their car .... i sms u wat happen ... u were so worried till u called me immediately n ask me anything happen to me or not ... i was so damn happy after i put down the phone...

n such a coincident that u will also go the same place to yum cha with ur frens...

so in the afternoon ... i planned to not sms u at all.. actually i planned to stop this relationship ...

i tired n i cant do it ... i though if i dint sms u ... u will oso not sms me ... but i was wrong again...

u did ask me wat m i doing n ask me where m i ....

i cant control my self... so the next thing i know is i call u ... n tell u wat m i doing ... n u tell me u wanna watch movie with me... i was lik OH MY GOSH ... i feel so so so happy becos usually i m the one who ask u out but today is ur the one...

then i rush back home n dint went to my 2nd aunt's house... becos i wanna see u ... but u ffk me... say tat u wanna sleep... when i was ready n waiting for u n ffk my aunty yes i was really really mad... then we started argue again ...

18 feb

these few days ... i learned my lesson i neve really feel lik going out with u ...

i dun hope to get disappointment from u again... may be i m scared de... seriously ... after the day ... we argued ... i seriously really really scare u will disappoint me again...

but today ... i wake up at 10 something actually wanted to see whether u wake de or not ...

but u neve reply n so i was tired too so i went back to sleep ... planned that when u reply me only i wake up again ... but he didnt sms me but in abt 1pm he called me ask me whether wanna go out eat with him... i was shock... n havent get ready n he wanna go out now ... swt .. so i give up ... i really think tat i can see u today... but after i dint get ready ... i was disappointed de... cos as ur character u wont bother abt me de... so i oso lik hais sure no chance to go out with u de la... but u then sms me tell me to get ready n wanna go out with me... wow i was damn happy ... fast fast get ready ... n bring me go watch movie... out with ur frens as well... together with ur frens we r still couples... n u hold my hands.. by ur self... i feel lik i m dreaming ... then after movie i went to ur house a while... then go out eat dinner with ur frens ... n planned to watch movie again... actually telling the truth ... i was jealous of marcus n his gf ... yes i kinda ask .. y marcus can treat his gf so good...n y u cant ... but after today experience ... they were arguing in front of us while we were havin dinner... n u said dun teach bad things ... haha ... n u can oso be the bf i wan u to be ... lik today ... u take vege for me while eating dinner... n hold my hands... sweet gila...

20 feb...

once i get up ... the 1st thing i did was sms u ... then take bath n get ready my self... becos i dun wanna experience lik tat day ... u say go out with ur fren eat n i will disappointed ... i scare of disappointment de ... i ask him whether i can go out with him .. he say can ... the answer he gave me lik i win a lottery only loh!!! so damn high de feeling ... then i dress up my self... n then go out eat breakfast with u de... i though tat u will fetch me home after we finish our meal.. becos i called u uncle... haha ... but u didnt ... so i went to ur house to watch movie with u ... i can hug u .. really feel really nice when i hug u ... i company u see doctor n then went back ur house to sleep afternoon nap ... then at night eat reunion dinner with ur parents n ur mom fren... 1st time oh !!

n u oso bring me up to genting with ur frens oh !!!... haha yes i cant go in casino ... i was disappointed... n u though i was showing faces... tell u the truth ... when i wanna go to 3rd casino door... i stomach pain haha .. wana go toilet ... ahahha .... so after u went into casino ... the 1st thing i did was find toilet ... then only go play arcade game ... may be becos i wanna go toilet face make u feel i was angry of u ... no la... i m not ... when you come out n company me back ... i feel lik eh y u so fast come out de... cos usually he won come out tat fast de lo ... then i ask him ... only he tell me he though i was angry .. haha see when u tell me wat u were thinking ... is so easy to settle the problem on the spot ... when fetching me home de time... u tell me u love me ... haha ... today u tell me twice u love me oh ... so so so happy leh !!!!

24 feb

few days de cant see u ... so so so freaking miss u lik hell !!!.... but nowadays i learned something new... even we r only " bfgf" with a "" on top... but i feel lik i m ok with it de... cos i feel happy ... n u still love me ... i can feel it ... haha n i learned how to not show u faces in front of u ... n oso not to get so disappointed when u go out with ur frens n not with me... haha ... today ... i finally can see u de!!!... so damn happy ... you know i really looking forward to today start from monday ??... i neve really have this kinda feelings... really ... i planned everything with my brother... cos usually i need to fetch him n my sis on wed ... but i tell him my plan n he agree... so finish class at 9 am ... i rush back home to cook breakfast for u since u was telling me dun wanna go out eat breakfast ... from morning i keep on thinking wat the hell to cook for u ... seriously ... very mafan to think ... but at the end i found the answer de... haha ... finish cooking by using half an hour... n then i called u ... i walk to ur house... i feel so so so wanna see u while walking there... then when i reach ur house... u joke with me saying tat ur car sold de... swt ... then u continue sleep... i sleep beside u ... n wake up at 1230pm... when sleeping u help me put blanket i feel so so sweet oh ... haha ... when u become so good de... then u bath de then kiss my lips tell me tat u wanna go eat breakfast ... i wanna see ur reaction when u eat my meal i ready for u ... but in the end u say it taste ok but when i taste the egg bread it taste lik shit only ... u still eat finish i feel kinda lik husband n wife loh !!!... hmmm then we watch tv in ur house... n u keep hugging me... happy leh me... then went bank a while ... n then go out lunch ... u usually won bring me to high class places for a meal... but u bring me to this new restaurant ... kopi bar... haha ... tats really expensive meal.. thx.. n then back to ur house wtach tv n yum cha with ur fren u drive motor out with me i 1st time giv u liao lor... haha so scary cos i neve ride on it b4 ... till night ... lol... we go yum cha aagin...even its only so simple ... but i m happy with it de...haha most happy thing is today ... ur fren call u go out play mah jiong usually u will go but u dint cox u say u wanna company me ... lol sweet nya...hias but still got 3 more days... u need to go out station de...

i hope i can see u enough ... before u go out station can ma?? ... becos i really miss u a lot !!