continue of sorrows...

hais ... yes i jus got back my law result ... its really kinda bad comparing with the previous exam...

but the lecturer comment on my exam was...

your are doing fine with the argument with the points u gave me...

i can see tat u have improve from the previous exam....

all you need to do is to learn how to write faster ( becos u uses 1 and a half hour to finish 3 essay how la)

good ... keep working hard ... >.<

lol i was lik then why the hell i get lower marks compare with last time??

well here goes my emotional times again....

i called my mom telling her abt all my marks...

hais... she is not sad neither happy ....

well... i nothing to say but jus to hear wats she comments abt my marks...

while she comments on the phone....

my tears keep flowing down....

i neve really feel so so so down to earth when it comes to exam marks....

then why now?? then yes my mom really knows me well...

becos i cal feel the stress and the pushing and the looking down by lecturers... and the tense....

which i dun usually get when i was younger....

well i should start my hard work now... before its really too late for me to turn back....

yes i made my choice... so now i need to work hard for it ....

nothing else matters but just my studies...

i hope i will keep this promise to myself till the end of the this year where i finish every single of my exams....

i will expect an A or at least a B for every subject i took....

i need to believe in my self ... well how could i give up my self .... where everyone can do it ....

y not me!!! so i need to bare with it ,....

no more fun and games... no more fooling around, it will be just me n my studies....

SERIOUSLY YIN PING quit PLAYING AROUND LIAO>>>>

hais i hope i can succeed but 1st way to success is to pull my self together to stop my self from fooling around... HAIS this is the hardest thing to do when everywhere there is negative externalities ....

after its been quite a long time ...

i notice a thing ...

i had been stressing out my self a lot...

i forgotten whens the last time did i ever really had fun ... till yesterday ...

when i went out with my best fren kah mun ...

i really feel the craziness ... the happiness tat i really wanted to feel...

n the 2 hours .. its lik jus 20 mins....

even after a long break in langkawi and penang

it doesnt feel as much of a fun lik i had yesterday but yes i did have fun in the trip ...

n the trip make me keep seeing back the picture we took during the trip ...

for several time ... n it make me feel relaxing while doing it...

and now i asked my self...

when really the last time i did had such fun ??

even nowadays i go clubbing oso .. it feels lik somethings missing ...

the feeling yesterday was lik nothing to care abt ...

and the moments only matters to me... its to have as much fun as possible ..

i feel tat way ... n it really make me feel lik ntg else matter ... even there is people beside us seeing us playing a fool taking picture... me n kah mun still doesnt care...

n i used to be the gurl i describe ...

but lately i m being to be more to

a stalker

a no fun

a anti social

a think a lot

a too emotional

a sensitive

a stick a lot to my lover

frankly speaking i dun really care abt my studies.. even the last min till spm ...

i was still playing around becos... i m kiasu ( too proud of myself)

becos i though tat my trial marks is good enuff ... till i regret ... i dint study ...

but it doesnt stop me from caring abt my studies..

till when it come to college ... when i can feel the stressness when the lecturer always pay more attention to the scholarship student n my class is lik 4/5 r scholarship student ,

and really i neve did cried for my marks be4 n yet now i do ...

becos its really bad comparing with them ...

n i feel really hard when the lecturer doesnt even have the intention to teach us ( non scholarship student) properly ...

i remember once i was asking my accountant lecturer how to do the account homework...

and she uses the angry n scolding tone to teach me... infront of everyone...

its really hurtfull n i feel humiliated....

then wat the hell u being my lecturer for??

full house

actually its kinda a bored day till at night ...

when i receive a good news from kah mun tat she can go out at night today ...

so darn happy becos usually she cant go out at night ...

so plan to bring her to places tat she neve went be4...

so we(me,kah mun ,and my sister) decided to go Full House in JLN Yap Kwan Seng

lol we arrive there at 9pm...

so we order food n beverage n oso desert ...

then we start to take picture ... from we haven order ...

order de waiting the food to come ... till our food come ...

still take picture... n after we finish our food ... we still take picture...

lol swt ... really had lots of fun with her ... dunno y i can be as crazy as i can be when i with her..

hahah may be becos she is my best fren ?? ahhaha...

i really enjoyed today a lot ...

chen ling's choice

mine choice

kah mun's choice

u see carefully the sink is pouring out water ..hahah wat a restaurant

more picture at my facebook ...

2 movie in a day ??

lol ... its really fun where u get to rush from college to go out with ur besties.

haha ...i finish class at 12pm ...n i reach mid valley at 1pm ...

yes y so late use one hour from kdu to mid valley ??

well becos i need to fecth my brother after he finish his college at 1230pm...

so then only i had my way to mid valley ...

so the movie starts at 2pm...

well the 1st movie me n my best fren (kah mun) watch was the "TOOTH FAIRY HURTS"

yea well tat movie was AWESOME

its really funny ~~~ really seriously ~~~~ i mean it ~~~~

when u r feeling down ... frustrated ... stressed ... i think this will be the best choice for u when u come to a situation where u wanna choose a movie to watch ...

this movie take abt 1hour45min so finish tat movie around 4pm de...

n i havent eaten my lunch ...

so went to pizzahurt to have our lunch ...

full lik hell la the lunch ...

then 5pm the second movie starts...we watch "THE SPY NEXT DOOR"

er ... opinion for this movie ...

er ... ma ma dei la ( means okay okay only lo )

its really i can see the movie a bit kekok ...

its lik totally acting ... i know they r acting but the movie seem so fake ...

like no interaction ... AT ALL

swt ... lik so fake!!! fake.. so really my opinion .. TOOTH FAIRY HURTS IS STILL THE BEST !!!

after the movie ... then went to PDI to buy some cloth then went home... well good friday huh ??

achievements for year 2009

i get my perfume tat i always wanted

i get the laptop tat i always dreamed

i get to go into college

i get to get a okay result for my spm

i get to buy quite a number of branded shirts

i get to buy some expensive designer bags, shoe, shirt

i get to know frens in college ...

i get to celebrate my birthday lik mad

i get to keep in touch with frens even after spm

i get to spent my time with my beloved boy fren ...

even this year i broke ups couples of time ...

but i really appreciate every second being with u and u and u ...

thx...

i get to live this year with a happy face on me ...

also thx to my frens... n to family supporting my back ...

my family problems doesnt seem to be so bad as year 08 ...

haha i guess year 2009 is okay afterall

crazier (taylor swift)

I've never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
Till you open the door
There's so much more
I've never seen it before

I was trying to fly
But I couldn't find wings
Then you came along
And you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground
Spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier,
Crazier, crazier

Watched from a distance as you
Made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know
How that would feel
And you made it so real

You showed me something that I couldn't see
Opened my eyes and you made me believe

You lift my feet off the ground
Spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier,
Crazier, crazier, oh

Baby, you showed me what living is for
I don't want to hide anymore

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier,
Crazier, crazier
Crazier, crazier

wedding ...

friday n saturday ... will be my cousin wedding ...

>.<>

hahahaha.... hmmm anyways... its okay la ....

i can meet back with my family ,,....

for friday ,... its kinda bored la...

but i kinda frustrated ....

cos my father drive the car till the destination .... he then pass the key to me...

n call me to park the car....

wat the hell ... wat u think i m ?? jockey ??

oso need pay money de wor... excuse me ...

hais ..... then after the reunion then i dirve home .. sien ... reach home at 12am....

i very tired de.... hais ....

saturday wake up very early to go for the wedding thingy ....

but although we went there so early also ...

we were late oso ... swt ... then my dad n my aunties n uncle keep talking till 2pm ...

swt very sien la... so play with small ppl ( children)

hahah.... now i know .. its not easy to take care of small childrens...

then i drive home again ....

this time ... me n my dad argue a lot in the car becos ... the road were really jam...

n i still use the road to get us home...

i m not familiar with the way home also then dun call me drive la...

plus he giv me last min advice to turn left n right ,...

i beh tahan de.... gonna explode!!!

start from this pic ...

till this pic everyone was too bored till keep play nintendo DS n PSP n I phone only >.<

then at night dinner .. 730pm we take off ... from our house to the restaurant ( Regal restaurant ....

the food ah eh okay la...

i only go there to eat shark fin soup but it really make me disappointed on thier shark fin soup

its really awful .. plus i was wondering is it those shark fin soup tat sell in pasar malam ...

becos it really taste lik those selling in pasar malam ...

n a lot of uncle aunty singing ?? hais .. my ear wanna explode de...

>.<>

but i did la... a bit only not lik when i m small i enjoy a lot when i go weddings...

tat guy act tall only la..

thursday 14 jan 2010

today will be my brother's birthday ,....

n tomoro will be no class for me ... hahah ,,,

darn happy sia!!!

hmmm then becos of his birthday ,,,

my father so good!!! bring my whole family to shushi king for dinner

hais ... so good leh ...

hmmm but with the help of my member card n the help of my family using digi ....

we have a lot of discount...

with 6 person .... eating .... it only cost my dad abt rm130 something ...

okay la ... haha ... we eat till quite full ... hais full lik hell man...

monday 11 jan 10

lol today after all my exams... finally !!!

yes!!! so i went out with kah mun again to watch ...

Did you hear abt the morgan ....

this movie was lik ... eh .... hmmm quite bored due ...

so i think isnt worth it la....

then after movie then we went to a shop to eat ...

its in the garden but the price its ok la...

haha ... we eat malay food .. since she is wearing braces ....

she cant eat food tats hard....

so she eat kuih only so cham ... >.<>

very tired de ... so abt 10 pm i went to bed liao ... sien

alvin and the chipmunk 2

lol went out with kah mun n his brother n my sis jus to watch alvin n the chipmunks...

i was in quite un happy mood tat time ...

well thx to kah mun she cheer me up a lot !!!

haha ... i really have fun with her duirng the outing in mid valley tat day ,,,

neve really talk de so a lot to talk abt tat day ... swt ...

oh ya abt the movie ... well its really good ... its worth watching ...

after the movie we went to spaghetti farm to have our lunch ...

haha the spaghetti there was .. hmmm can consider ok lo ...

the price is really reasonable a set of spaghetti its only rm13....

which include ... spaghetti + soup +drink = rm13....

so its quite ok la....

we went back home at 6 pm ... cos kah mun need to get home be4 the father does...

hahah ... have fun thx kah mun ...

after a full whole day without ur sense ...

i have been wondering have i did the right thing at the 1st place i choose to do ...

if i did y m i feeling so pain ....

feeling lik to torture my self to feel every pain i have ...

n will always have the intention of cutting my wrist ...

eating 10 tablets of panadol??

killing my own soul ....

i once gone through this kinda situation where evrything ....

my parnets my family my frens... my lover is gone ... shut their door on me...

but now there r plenty of frens to cheer me up ... there r family tooo ...

n i only lose is my heart to you ...

its broken badly ... into pieces ... every piece represented the cruelness tat u treat me ....

disappointments tat u make me feel .... the painfullness i gone through my own without u ....

n its much more suffering then i ever though it will be....

its much suffering then the 1st time i experience this situation ... where is even worst then this ...

but it seems my heart n soul have been with u too deep too long ...

it make me suffer everyday without u talking to me ...

where have u been ?? ... i wish i could jus die in an accident ...

or sleep in a coma....

or even have a brain surgery to erase everything abt u ....

i missing the sense tat u gave me ...

or the voice tat belong to u has been so far apart from me...

i wish tat i could see u ... once again

once again .... i ... m ...

after 4 months ... of sweetness n sourness from a relationship ...

yes we no longer have the same feeling as 4 months before...

time change n people change ....

i still remember he once chase me ... its jus lik yesterday ...

where he always msn me... calling me to go out with him ... n then he always waited me to get ready for 30 min ...

till one day its raining ... we made a innocent mistake in his car .. where we started kissing ...

becos ... i finally can accept him ....

i still remember i gave many excuses for him y i dint accept him...

simply becos ... his birth date is same with one of my ex ... tat hurt me a lot last time...

i really trusted horoscope a lot ... n i scare he will be the same as my ex last time...

even tat day ... we kissed ... i still feel the fear in me ... tat one day i will lose him ...

n he will hurt me ... but i didnt think the day will arrive so fast lik a thunder strike...

the time we started dating ... our frens neve tough of it ... all becos of me ...

becos i treating him so cold .... n i always flirt with guys ...

becos tat time i m not fully feeling lik to commit to him till the day we r together...

n i have totally change from bad gurl > a anti talking with guys ... unless they r my close frens...

my bf will always tell me how i change ... n i can see how he change as well....

at the beginning ... he really treat me as if i m the angel from the sky ...

the princess of the fare land...

the love tat only he can get....

when we go out we will look lik no any couple in the earth...

very sweet n holding hands... talking n smiling away...

even when he go out station he will giv me his pillow ...

jus in case tat i misses him ... i will hug his pillow.... he will buy for me chocolate jus in case...

tat i suffering from period pain ... n the chocolates will help me...

he will always tell me he love me ... n say good nite everyday without fail...

but i dunno since when ... he didnt do so anymore....

i misses when he suddenly called me .. n call me ching ai de ... wat r u doing ... i very miss u oh ...

i misses the days he invite me to go out with him...

i misses the way he treat me so so good...

i misses the days... when he tells me how much he love me ...

the longer the relationship been ...

the lesser he tells me wats his doing ...

the lesser he tell me he loves me

the lesser he tell me he miss me....

the lesser we hold hands in public...

the lesser we communicate....

the lesser smiles tat appear in our faces...

the more argument between us....

the more lies you told me...

the more secret you have to hide from me...

the more tears i lay for u ...

the more lazier you get everyday ...

the more u change till become a guy tat i not use to know...

the more complains from u ...

i always wonder y we will become lik this ??....

n i dare not tell u wat i really feel in me ... till jus today ...

i exploded... i tell u everything i m i not really happy with the way u r...

i dun mind u not spending me out for fancy dinner....

i dun mind sitting with u at mamak to have our dinner or lunch ...

i dun mind movies once a month ....

i dun mind movies in ur room with u ...

i dun mind u scold me bitch or lazy or stubborn

but i do mind when u tell me less i love u ...

i mind when u less hug me....

i mind when u less find me out jus to see me...

i mind when u less tell me u miss me...

i mind when care less abt me n my feelings for u ...

as wat we gone through together ... its not much n not to say less...

from u i learn a lot... a lot tat i cant be learn from no one else...

i still really love you ... very very much ...

even jus now i wish to hug u tightly ... n say out loud i love u ...

but i bare my self for it ... as i feel ... u dun take me seriously when i m serious to u ...

i wan to find u is becos i wanna see ur reaction how u deal when i say we ends here...

but in the end ... u didnt ... u jus let me go ... becos u said u cant fullfill my needs...

i m really disappointed tat u decided tat ...while i was hoping for not to let me go pls...

but wats done is done ... i cant take a time machine to go back to jus now ...

i really thinking the fact tat y we always argue is becos of money ...

money is the reason wat make u so mad of me...

but i really did change for u ... n u admit tat ur self too ... then y u blame me again n again ...

n take it back up to say again n again ...??

which i committed the same crime?? ...and u said i changed a lot for u ?? it doesnt make sense...

n becos of u scare of losing to me while we were in a fight...

tat y make u brought up tat idea ?? ... i started crying from 9 till now ...

i neve stop ... n i dunno how m i suppose to sit for exam tomoro ...

n cant able to sleep ... n keep on thinking of jus u n u n more you in my head...

sobbing away ... i feel ridiculous...

my self saying break up n i m the one tats sad...

i feel silly ... may be becos i dint want to let go ??

new year eve with my dear

thanks dear bring me to full house in KL ...

i really wanted to go tat place for a long time;....

finally i get to go there...

we reach there abt 9 pm ... we actually planned to count down there as well...

becos .. i wanted to jus have a celebration jus the both of us ...

i know tat my dear really wanna join his fren to celebrate ...

but at the end he chooses to be jus with me....

Full House is much more then i aspect ed ...

tat place is really nice ... tat i cant imagine ... n words cant describe ...

haha ... wait till u go there ur self n experience it ...

then its worth for a millions word ...

that night no side dish jus main course ... or shall i say sets tat has already being prepared...

only 3 sets for u to choose ... chicken or beef or fish ... tats it ...

n the amount of those dishes is jus proportion lik fine dinning ...

and all sets come with the same soup of the day

red wine or ice lemon tea

and desert tat is pudding which is made on spot which is not kept over night

fine dinning = price expensive >.<

we finish our dinner n its time to see the fire works...

cheers,,,,

then finish with the fire works....

we went back yulek ... to celebrate with his frens ..

go pub of course ... haha his favorite place rite ....

n i drink till lik ... i m ill bit tipsy

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE ...

hope tat u all will enjoy the new year 2010 ...

new year new hopes n dreams... hope everything will go well ...

picture of the day

her choice...

his choice...